You know, during this pandemic,I’ve realized a lot of things.
The things I chose that made me unhappy, though in the moment I never realize why; the many things I should’ve been grateful for; the things that I thought I had wanted but didn’t.
I never could have predicted what was wrong until I felt the difference when things had already changed.
An effervescence. A bitter sweet taste.
Soap that suddenly turns to bubbles to reflect the world in a rainbow.
It knows how easy it can pop.
I’m happy. Really, really happy.
I worked too much. I forgot the things that made every day exciting and worth life.
I’ve been in quarantine for 4 days.
And for once, I have time to sweep the patio. For the first time since I was a kid, I cut back all the brambles hanging over the deck. I finished an entire page in my colouring book.
An ENTIRE page.
I felt this CONTENT.
It’s ironic how only in the moments that we fear our end, do we realize the things that we don’t want to.
People are going to be lost….
It’s the inevitability that’s pushing us to be proactive.
However people have, and still will be lost…..
How many at this moment,
Contemplate their morality ?
Suddenly we realize….
What we’ve created, might be all we get to leave. How we’ve created it, an example someone might seek to follow.
I don’t know who I am.
But for once I don’t know why I ever needed to.
I prayed today.
For the first time since I can remember.
I forgot to give thanks, so I’ll give thanks now.
THANK YOU◦ For all the blessing and curses you’ve given me, oh glorious universe.