If the world was ending you’d come over right ?

I sent you a song about the world ending

I hadn’t realized that it already had

Ended that is

They told me that when I died that it’d just simply go to black

But they used death like it was permanent

rather than a reoccurring patch

Conversations I find, are better had

Now with a mix of scotch and a cigarette in hand

Liquid life please, add some life to my eyes while I dream

Then this reminds me there’s still things for me to see

Though my mind is like ww3

With the falling of each shell ticking down the time I have left

I died with you when I said goodbye that winter morning

But this time it seems

Only temporarily I’ve faded to black

My world with you ended

Bumblebee

To create a world without you

Seems to be harder than I’d perceived.

😴

🐝🐝

Someone I Barely Knew

When did I start only seeing your car over the barrier

From here it seems the tree branches sweep the clouds from the sky

I miss gazing into those metallic eyes wondering if steel could learn to cry

I always saw your actions in grey and your lies in white

But now your black is in the corners of my sight

The tendons to our bridge are starting to snap my darling Achilles heel

This raft won’t carry 2, so rather than be rose I’ll learn to kneel

< Chorus >

How did I never notice we only jumped to red roofs

And you never asked why I saturated myself in blue

You always said purple was a shade you’d never do

I’ve always been a cabin in the woods while she’s a skyscraper in heels

Under this weight even Hercules would keel

-Verse 2-

This loss is like the 4:44 I once loved as it cleanses me

Like you were rot in my teeth and now I have floss

I always hid my bleeding lips under glistening gloss

Before that electric feel, what kinda food shall we eat for this final meal

You could drink my tears while I eat your fears

Then when asked by our peers

I’ll say you’re someone I barely knew

<chorus>

Wakemeupplease

There’s Feathers, falling from the sky above

Stars dance, as My body falls

The pavement smells, of vinegar and freshly fallen rain

They told to me to let go, of the rock that holds me in my pain

A pebble in my heart

I am not a messiah today

I’m being watched

By the demons I cannot escape

I feel them now

A dark figure that caught my gaze

I’m watching myself now

The damp spreads, darkening my baggy jeans

Wake up,

How do I wake up ?

A nightmare, a reality I can’t release

Remembering them slowly, through the sweat stains on my sheets

Through my drool soaked screams,

I speak The stories that haunt me

Oh please

Won’t you wake me up?

My finger’s twitching,

I remember what it was like, to hold someone’s hand

Oh my chest,

The rain can’t blur my vision enough

To stop me from seeing

The seizing, I’m feeling

Their steps echoing, to where I am

I’m right here

Can’t you hear me ?

The colours change you know

When there aren’t eyelids

To weigh your vision down

It’s not so bad here

I could almost fall asleep

But wasn’t I already ?

Dreaming, I thought.

Mining for Gold ✨

My eyes flutter

I slowly become aware of the alarm blaring at my bedside

I search the bed

Eyes slammed closed by the weight of the past

I shut it off with my left hand

Then I lay

Digging away

Dirt beneath my nails

Mining in the deepest depths of myself

To find something that could will me awake

To face another day

To wear a smile I can actually feel

And each day

My labour is fruitful

A hidden gold nugget of hope

Found by my pick axe like food stuck between my teeth

But everyday

Entails a lot of mining

And a lot of foraging

To keep my smiles bright

This morning

I worry

I don’t think I have any left