Darling creature who treads water like land,
Is everything well ?
With every sentence I begin writing, thousands of words in every language dance with the sentiments I’d like to send your way.
Today I release myself temporarily from this mundane existence. Point A to Point B is no longer the distance from one significance to the next, but instead it becomes significant itself. In life I find we spend so much time analyzing what we can see that we forget to leave room for the things that we can’t.
Today I cannot dismiss my cravings for you like I can for the other things that can never be. I know that as time moves forward I’ll further fade from your mind, as you’ll fade from mine. However, it is up to our discretion to decide when time is relative to us enough to dictate such a thing. Yesterday my lingering feelings for you lived only in my dreams, but today I love you the same way I did when I said it to you the first time.
I pulled out a Christmas CD from 2019 and it reminded me of something that I’d never said.
Sometimes I didn’t forget, I just wasn’t listening.
I was too lost contemplating how unfathomable it was that the sound of your voice alone was so intoxicating, there wasn’t any room left to try and make sense of what you were actually saying.
I’ve avoided writing to you more because I never want our relationship to become a topic of conversation that ends with you deciding that our lingering contact has become unhealthy.
I still hope to be considered a friend to you forevermore.
You likely won’t hear from me for awhile after this, but I want you to know with no doubt in your mind that you will always be a bookmarked chapter in my life. I miss you and I’m forever grateful for the many ways you helped me grow in such a short time.
To avoid rambling forever, I’ll leave you with a question.
What do you feel when you forget what you know ?
With every drop of existence that I embody, I wish you good health.
– The crazy girl you had a fling with in 2019 💛