Someone I Barely Knew

When did I start only seeing your car over the barrier

From here it seems the tree branches sweep the clouds from the sky

I miss gazing into those metallic eyes wondering if steel could learn to cry

I always saw your actions in grey and your lies in white

But now your black is in the corners of my sight

The tendons to our bridge are starting to snap my darling Achilles heel

This raft won’t carry 2, so rather than be rose I’ll learn to kneel

< Chorus >

How did I never notice we only jumped to red roofs

And you never asked why I saturated myself in blue

You always said purple was a shade you’d never do

I’ve always been a cabin in the woods while she’s a skyscraper in heels

Under this weight even Hercules would keel

-Verse 2-

This loss is like the 4:44 I once loved as it cleanses me

Like you were rot in my teeth and now I have floss

I always hid my bleeding lips under glistening gloss

Before that electric feel, what kinda food shall we eat for this final meal

You could drink my tears while I eat your fears

Then when asked by our peers

I’ll say you’re someone I barely knew

<chorus>

Wakemeupplease

There’s Feathers, falling from the sky above

Stars dance, as My body falls

The pavement smells, of vinegar and freshly fallen rain

They told to me to let go, of the rock that holds me in my pain

A pebble in my heart

I am not a messiah today

I’m being watched

By the demons I cannot escape

I feel them now

A dark figure that caught my gaze

I’m watching myself now

The damp spreads, darkening my baggy jeans

Wake up,

How do I wake up ?

A nightmare, a reality I can’t release

Remembering them slowly, through the sweat stains on my sheets

Through my drool soaked screams,

I speak The stories that haunt me

Oh please

Won’t you wake me up?

My finger’s twitching,

I remember what it was like, to hold someone’s hand

Oh my chest,

The rain can’t blur my vision enough

To stop me from seeing

The seizing, I’m feeling

Their steps echoing, to where I am

I’m right here

Can’t you hear me ?

The colours change you know

When there aren’t eyelids

To weigh your vision down

It’s not so bad here

I could almost fall asleep

But wasn’t I already ?

Dreaming, I thought.

To The Future Blue 💙

You know, one time you woke up bleary eyed, and he said that the meaning of your name didn’t begin to describe the light that opening your eyes brought to the world.

You know, the first time he came over, your first interaction was him lifting a guitar and watermelon Jack Daniels and you lifting a wii remote and sleemans.

You know, one time before sex, he asked you to put on a rick and morty sweater. Not only did you do it, but you made a dance out of it too.

You know, one time you gave up your dream, because someone else had the same one, and the look in their eyes was defeated whenever you got a compliment instead of them. Now their well on their way to that dream.

You know, one time while you were working, you yelled in front of all the customers to your manager “I only take a shit when I’m getting payed for it!”.

You know, one time someone called you crude. So you giggled and burped in their face.

You know, one time you made an elderly lady laugh, because you convinced her that you’d turn all the workers of a bakery, into an orchestra that would take the world by storm.

You know, everytime you preached to no one and everyone, someone was listening.

You know, when a taller Daniel Radcliffe came into your work and you swooned, he swooned a bit too.

Did you know that even if they blame you, it doesn’t mean that it’s your fault.

Did you know that even though you weren’t loved when you needed to be, doesn’t mean that others won’t love you after.

Did you know ? Everytime you pushed them away, there was always someone that kept trying.

Did you realize ?? That through all those walls, someone still always slipped through ?

Did you know ??? That everytime you wanted to die and didn’t allow yourself, it was the universe telling you that you were meant for something more.

Did you know ? I love you.

I loved you yesterday, I love you today, and I will love you when you find this hidden in a dusty old notebook years from now.

Now, did you know ¿ That even though you couldn’t believe it, they love you too.

So when you read this, tell someone you love them. Because saying it, will never make you weak.

Did you know ? Love is stronger than anything?

Did you know ? You’ve always been capable of love, and love, you will always have.

~Blue

Joyful Simpleton X Tortured Genius

My lenses bear the scratches of my past, dreaming of their removal.

Seeing my eyes glisten, free at last to see clearly the life that I’ve made.

To appreciate fully what I’ve been given & what I gave.

To show through my eyes what I’m not willing to say.

“I love you X I hate you”

The horrid days that refuse to leave me sane.

But I know! One day my dream will come to pass.

My happiness won’t be questioned by self. I am me, and I am happy, & that is fact.

Sometimes I may forget myself & lose all tact, but to be the joyful simpleton itself is the greatest of acts.

June 13th, 2024.

In five years from today I’m going to send this blogs link to a friend of mine.

June 13th, 2024.

No one that knows me currently follows this blog.

I won’t share my name.

However one day when I’m 80 years old, I’ll have 3 foot long black hairs dangling from my chin. Dragons tattooed on both upper arms, flying as I jiggle my chicken fat whilst chasing hooligans down the street, naked save for a diaper and clacking tongs, screaming “I’ll get you for this”.

I will release my true name.

In five years from today I will change my identity as my current one becomes associated with this blog.

Then when I become that 80 year old woman, I will reunite with this me I am now, and I’ll address you lovely people once again.

~NaeNae~